Month: April 2016

Would losing me be a loss?

~ lifenewmexico ~ Leave a comment

The answer to that question is yes. Losing you would be a loss. Do you know how special you are? Do you know how much you are loved? Well, obviously you don’t because you are asking that question.

To the person asking this question,

How can you be so selfish? How can you think that your life doesn’t matter? I bet you can think of at least one person who has shown you kindness or has been your supporter. They are the people you should live for. They would be heart broken if you ever tried to rid the world of yourself. You were made for so much more then what you think you are worth! Thinking that you are not worth a flit just makes my blood boil. Your worth cannot be found at the bottom of a bottle, in the pills you pop, in what you smoke, in the cloths you buy, in the relationships you have, or in the life style you try to hide. Your worth comes from the one true creator of the world! The one who formed you in your mother’s womb. The one that knows what you try to hide. The one who see your tears and sorrows. The one who picks you up and dusts you off. The one that says “You are my child and I love you.” That person is the savior of the world. His name is Jesus. He came to earth to break our chains of addiction and sin. He bore your sin and my sin on his shoulders. He loves you so much that he died on a cross in your place so that you and God will not be separated. There is no river, mountain, ocean, or desert that can ever separate us from the love of God and his son Jesus. The only way that I have found to feel this full of worth is by confessing my sins to God, believing that Jesus died for me, and asking Jesus to come live in my heart. It is not an easy road. The journey to heaven is a long and narrow road. Few have found it and even fewer have been able to stick to the path. I can guarantee that your reward will be great if you only have the courage to follow Jesus. Though Jesus we are free from drugs, alcohol, sex, porn, depression, and a whole list of other things. Whatever you are going though, you can be free from it just by asking Jesus into your heart and believing that you are free in him.

If you don’t get anything but this out of what I have written, remember this; God made you special and he loves you very much. 

Sharing my heart

~ lifenewmexico ~ Leave a comment

Let me share some of my heart with you tonight.

I was looking back in one of my note books and I came across an entry that come from 2012 and is about a page and a half long.

I wrote it during my last year as a camper at Cristian Retreat Center.

It comes from a time in my life after I had received my calling to work at the Navajo Brethren in Christ Mission on the Navajo Reservation.

It was before Grandma Yoder passed away. I was grieving for her even before she died. I still sometimes feel that empty space that she once filled with her love, and I cry.

I was waiting impatiently for God to say that it was time for me to do his work in New Mexico.

I was discontent in the job I was holding at the local grocery store. Now, don’t get me wrong, I liked working with the people and my coworkers in the store. But I knew that it wasn’t permeant and that God was working in ways that I can’t even imagine.

Needless to say, it was an emotional year.

The entry goes,

To you my God I lift my voice in praise. In song you speak to me. You fill me to overflowing. In the depths of my heart I feel you working on my soul. Shaping me into the person I should be. In the midst of my pain and suffering, you touch me and heal my wounds.

     You tell me each day, “I love you!”

But I look to the future and I am scared.

     You say, “I am with you always. Forever and ever. I was, I AM, I will be FOREVER! In the midst of your trials, in the midst of your pain, and in the midst of your confusion. I will always be with you! I will always be by your side. I will Bless Your Socks Off! I will give you more then you can imagine! There is no end to my love for you! The heavens cry out to you in your pain. They rejoice in your triumphs and victories!”

With all that I am, I will praise God! 

With this entry, I am reminded of how much I love my God and my Savior. I feel as if that entry was written to encourage others; not just myself. Though my life on the mission field may seem all sunshine and roses in my news letters, it’s not. I have rough days and good days just like everyone else. Most days are good. But somedays it’s good to find little gems like I found this evening.

I hope this has been an encouragement to someone out there. I pray that you may find the wonderful peace that comes with knowing how much you are loved. Not just by the people around you but by God as well.